Wed, Jun. 21st, 2006, 04:06 am
So much I want to say and so little time to say it, or rather its the wrong times but it always is...
Mon, Jun. 5th, 2006, 02:44 am
So I went to my ex wifes to hang out for a while tonight we watched a movie and I was fine untill I heard one line that hit me hard.
The Heart slowly dies
abonding all hope
like leaves falling from a tree
untill there is nothing left
This is kinda how I feel
Ok so he went to bed and I steped out for a smoke and relised that it was foggy I love the fog it felt great told beth about it and she said she would be right out, cool yay I get some spend some time with her but she went and woke him up so he could see well ok i was a little dissapointed this makes me feel like she cant be around me unless there is someone else there WTF! but no biggy its cool but then she starts cowering and apologiseing for it like I was mad or somthing my god I didnt say a word, that kinda pissed me off just a bit I think im re thinking my decision and im going to kick him out that is with in my power since he is sleeping in my living room....
Thu, Jun. 1st, 2006, 02:21 am
WMP 11 Beta
Finally windows media player 11 is in open beta, been waiting for this since I got ahold of the Vista Beta 2....
After long diliberation I think that im going to go ahead and move out and let them be.
this hurt like hell but I think its the best thing to do. There is not point in prolonging this pain
I just dont like my alternative which is to move back in with my ex-wife but at least she is symathetic to my position hell even though she hates my mate she would rather see me with her since she has figured out how much I love her. I guess she didnt think that I cared for Beth as much as I do, hell I dont think I even knew. but I digress here it is less then a week till AKON and well Dante and I are just starting to get our costumes together fun fun.
Wed, May. 31st, 2006, 06:40 pm
Ive been asleep most of the day, because im tired im emotionaly drained, and one of my friends came in my room and woke me up because he saw the damn shot glass on my desk with a bottle of Hot Damn and through a fit that there must be somthing wrong since I was doing shot of Hot Damn. Give me a break it took him this long to notice that there was something wrong, and it was beause of Hot Damn!!?!
|You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament|
Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.
You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.
You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.
It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.
You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.
While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.
At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.
You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.
You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.
So for the past several years Ive been trying to go to AKON this year it looks like I might actually make it im not holding my breath bit heh its looking good so far.
ok so yeah here I am bored as hell my girl friend of the past 2 years is in love with my friggin room mate but dosent want me to go anywhere she spends all her damn time with him, and the worst thing of all is I can kick him out and I start to and she asks me not to so I dont, Ireally used to like him now though I really feeling hate for the first time in my life, its and ugly feeling but in some ways it feel satisfying I think I could almost get used to this feeling. anywho more to come later im sure I need to rant and this is the one damn place I know she dosent look that often.